ok, so I havent been here in such alog time. as I was looking at the friends page I actually dont recognaice anyone. anyways, so say what u want and all but I tried doing all that healthy diet. exercise and counting calories and now I weight 180 pounds. I gained 15 pounds. so right now my self esteem is on the shit, I look like shit. my close dont fit me at all. I am just all discussted. so I decide to start today the ABC DIET.  thats the only one to seem to work when I did it acouple of months ago. I dd it for about 7 days and I had lost 6 punds. basically a pound per day. and I am so fucked up phsically, that I need to lose weght.  so does anyone want to join me ? 

xoxo Cindy

p.s. stay strong ladies and lets keep our eyes on the gold



I love the Veronicas and they are my thinspo.

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Thanx girls!
all of u who wrote to me and tried to help. so I when to the docoters office because I really started feeling really bad and I was going krazy. so the Doctor said I have depression. and after a week of drinking pills I feel so much better and I see a light at the end of the tunel. I am me again, I am positive and active. I also am starting to lose weight with those pills, the doctor said that some peaop gain alot of weight with depression and that was my deal. so I already lost 5 pounds without even really trying.  so again THANK YOU girls so much.  I still want to lose like 55 pounds, because I am way over weight but I will let u know how thats woeking out.  love ya girls and good luck with everything.
xoxo Cindy

FAT ASS !!!
Thats all I can say about myself. I am 160 pounds, I am 5 pounds away from being when I am 9 month pregnant with my son. Ccan u belive that? I look like nine month pregnant all over again. Gosh I have myslef, me and my wick ass that cannot stay away from food and all that binging. I so feel like taht lady in the bottom. I am just so mad, I mean everytime I gotta go out I cry because when ever I am putting my cloths on its a fight, like taht lady in the bottom pix. and every time I cry. but then I see a delisious plate of food I eat. I am so mad and I so hate me. I sm a good for nothing fat bitch. I am so sorry for saying all this but I just need to let it out.  i am a comlite failure !!!! 
what can I do now? what should I do?  I need help ladies !!!!
 

  ME !!!

XOXO  cindy

p.s.  can anybody HEAR ME???

ok, so I havent really been following the ana boot camp. I noticed that everytime I ate less than 500 calories I get really bad and end up binging big time so I am trtying to stick just to no less than 500 calories, sorry. but I also finaly got a tredmill and I swear to u I have been working out 3-4 hours daily. I have been doing alot of cardio and an hour of strength. so, I think so far I am going to stick to this couse it is working better for me. but I will keep posting, I promise and I will also keep motivationg u girls. oh, and if its okay with u I am still going to tittle as ABC DIET 5/9 couse I still consider myslef part of the group.
well good luck and love ya. stay strong and u`ll see that u will look HOT by the end of summer.

xoxo Cindy

I am getting weaker !!!!!
girls, come on !! we need to stay strong together. can any of u that have been keeping up with me tell me and reminde me what a big cow I look. how descusting and huge my ass is. I need to hear it and stick it in my fat  head so It hurts me and I will strinct with myself again.
I am totaly losing annas voice inside me. and i cant because I need her with me, so pleace I am begging can u guys please remind me why I am doing this. heres my body pix today.  I am 5 feet tall and weight 150 lbs ( I already lost 5 pounds by day 4 ) but I cant seems to lose more because I keep binging.


xoxo Cindy

p.s. I need to hear ur honest comment.

Ok, so yesterday I conplitly bingenged and I am so mad for that. today and hopefully for the rest of the abc diet I plan to stay strong. I have also been workingout  very hard.  so like I said I am sorry again ladies for letting udown, I promise to do better. love ya girls and stay strong
xoxo Cindy

ok, here is the website for the video of insparation. sorry  I think I did it wrong in my last post

love ya



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OMG !!
I am so sorry girls, I failed again. I ate  aproximatly 1000 calories. but I swear I worked out 4 hours today  and I am fasting tomorrow. Today for somereason I had lost my will of power. I am so sorry again. : (   
I SWEAR I WILL MAKE IT UP TOMORROW !!!  How is everyone else doing? 
well remember to saty strong and that together we will get there, we wil be the hottest bitches around !!

xoxo Cindy


must see this great insperation videos !!

ok,
so yesterday I was suppose to eat 500 calories but I had 800 calories, so I feel terriblke but at  the same time proud. why? well because yesterday was mothers day, and my husband took me to a nice resturant and even got me my favrote dessert. and I still got to manage or to not exaclty let my slef go to just eating and eatting adn eatting. U know, I might have crossed the 500 calorie line but I need not do so bad like I would have on the past days. I feel like I am becoming more aware, and I am starting t have more control and  pay attention to my body where if I am not hungry I dont need food. so why eat? 
but now I have a quetion. today for day 3 what should I do? should I fast or should I just eat the 300 calories? I need help so please someone answer my question.

xoxo Cindy

Omg ! right now is 9:09 p.m. over here and I am suppose to be getting ready for bed but I cant seem to stop thinking about food. I mean I am not even hungry!!! , I just feel like eatting sweet things. But thats why I decided to come and check on u girls and reading ur guys is pots got me back on track. We are doing this together as a team, so I am glad to inform that today was a succes, I had my 500 calories of the day and workedout an 2 hours. and dranked alot of water. and hey is it just me, but eatting less calories and doing exercise is getting u guys sleepy? couse damm like around 6 pm I felt so sleepy. anyways, I just wanted to thank you guys for doing this all together because I really do think that this time I will make it till the end, ALL 100 DAYS!!!!
I can wait tpo see myself and all of u guys in 100 days.  good luck and keep ur eyes on the goal.
xoxo Cindy


p.s. here are some pix of my body right now, I do want to warn you that it is pretty gross!! 

ok, so so far is 3:18 p.m. right now and I had 160 calories from and apple and 6 crackers oh and a gummy bear.  I have also had alot of water. I did and hour of exercise, and well I was also running after my son at my nephews soccer game so I am pretty sure that I burned some calories there. : D !!
wow, I am very inpresed about me, I mean to be honest with u, I am not even that hungry.
ok, well I `ll check on u girls later.
peace, love & good luck
Cindy

p.s. later I will posting a pix of my discusting body and I will need everyone to coment on it, so look for it.

Exaited and ready for tomorrow!!!

xoxo  Cindy

Yep, I am so ready.
Sarting tomorrow I am doing the ABC diet.  does anyone want in? I need support and motivation and most of all I need some competition.  I think that if we see it like a competition we will puch eachother more hard core. so is anyone interested?
my stats are  5 feet tall . I weight 150 lbs and I am 22 years old. and as u can tell I am a complite cow.
well good luck ladies and think thin

xoxo Ciny

p.s. has anyone done the ABC diet and might want to share some pointers or if they succesed?  : )